External Study. No Words.

It is ironic that I cannot find the words to convey how I feel about external study, considering one of my units is written communication.

External study is… just doing my head in. Seriously.
I did not expect it to be so hard!
It’s (obviously) not like going to a class and they say right, here’s this, this and this. Do that each week, keep a record of it, go over it occasionally and you will do well.

You just get thrown in, right at the deep end.
And you get given readings that you cannot print out!
I am someone who needs to print out what I’m reading so I can highlight and absorb the topic.
On the computer, words just meld into each other - maybe I should get my eyes tested…

And I’m still SO.FUCKING.TIRED.
I expected that with the kids in daycare full time, I would not be tired, I would be dandy – but I’m not!
They still get up early. They still get up during the night.
Granted, I don’t have the task of entertaining them throughout the day anymore, but now during the day my brain is occupied with trying to concentrate on the topic I’m reading about, instead of why the hell the author has thrown in so many big, unnecessary words.
I mean seriously, I understand you probably had a word count to reach but far out. My brain has not been used very often in the last three years and now I have to deal with this? Woe is me.

Another thing I’m struggling with is for so long,t he computer has been a little escape haven for me.
I am used to sitting down, catching little bits here and there. News articles, blogs, facebook, tweets. Very rarely do I read an article that takes longer than 5 minutes. There are just better things I could be doing with my time.
And now, I am expected to sit down and not only concentrate, but do it for an extended period of time – daily!

Don’t get me wrong.
I did not think it would be a walk in the park.
I did not want it to be a walk in the park.
I just did not think it would be so tedious.

And holy shit – don’t even get me started on referencing.

5 thoughts on “External Study. No Words.

  1. I don’t know if this will help now that you’ve already started, but Open Universities run a couple of units specifically designed to introduce you to university study, or get you back into it after a break. I haven’t done them myself, but I’ve spoken to many people who have and they say it was really beneficial to get them into the right frame of mind and get them used to all the things you’ve mentioned.

    • Thanks lovely!
      I did a PASS class last night which is peer assisted study and it was so helpful!
      Basically it’s a bunch of external students in a tute sort of environment. I hope it stays that way :)

  2. I did external study a few years ago.. so very hard! Much harder than I had anticipated, but when its the only feasible choice, you just gotta roll with it. It gets easier, once you get into the swing of things. but you have to be much more organised and strict on yourself. But, I am so sure you will pass with flying colours!!!!! Just be kind to yourself and roll with the punches!

    • I have sat down for an entire day and completely caught up on one subject. I feel a lot better right now.
      I think I will do a second weekly task tonight which will take a little more creativity but I am feeling better!

  3. I have done all my study via external (2 undergrads, 2 post grad diplomas and a Masters). It certainly does present different challenges than studying on campus!

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